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One slip of the tongue
Razor sharp, but never let it show
It’s like you need me enough to never let me go
I didn’t want anything
I’ll look you straight into the eyes and say
“This is the last time I’ll ever give you another piece of me”
It comes for us all
I’ve got this aching that’s taken over
Every day it keeps on getting a little worse
I beat myself down until I cave in
I will pry and I will claw just to be heard
I sat around till late
With nothing but a pen and a blank page
With nothing but the minutes pounding on me
The clean slate is just a moment of peace
I don’t want anything
I don’t want to go outside today
I don’t want to talk to anybody
I don’t care to hear about your day
It comes for us all
I’ve got this aching that’s taken over
Every day it keeps on getting a little worse
I beat myself down until I cave in
I will pry and I will claw just to be heard
They took my cell phone, gave me a number
Said “the only thing I want is to make you hurt”
I beat myself down until I cave in
I will pry and I will claw just to be heard
Barefoot through the dark
What’s left for you?
Cradle your glass heart
Is that enough for you?
I’ve got this aching that’s taken over
Every day it keeps on getting a little worse
I beat myself down until I cave in
I will pry and I will claw just to be heard
They took my cell phone, gave me a number
Said “I want what I want and it’s what I deserve”
I beat myself down until I cave in
I will pry and I will claw just to be heard
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I Want to Kill You
03:12
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I’ll pick it up right where I left off
Their banging their drums and they point to me
I’m only alive when I need to be
I’ll keep on digging up my lost cause
It comes so slow but suddenly
The things that make you happy
They are not enough for me
I’ll keep it coming if you want some more
I’ll keep on running but it gets so tiring
And when there is nothing left to write down
Oh, will you come running when I get too tired?
In the bright red sky I saw a pain that I clung to once before
But I never want to go there anymore
And in my bright blue eyes I know I’m looking for something to calm my nerves
The clock is a knife and I wait my turn
and it’s just getting worse
I’ll keep it coming if you want some more
I’ll keep on running but it gets so tiring
And when all the water fills my lungs up
Oh, will you come running when I get too tired?
I just want to play god for myself
I just want war and nothing else
I’ll keep it coming if you want some more
I’ll keep on running but it gets so tiring
And when I got nothing left to give you
Oh, will you come running when I get too tired?
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Blue Sunday
03:52
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On my blue Sunday
There’s nothing else that I can do
I throw my troubles away
Don’t do nothing I don’t want to
And as your body takes shape
I draw your shadow in my room
I got a lot to take in and nowhere to begin
She told me oh no, don’t you keep me waiting baby
Don’t want to be something if I gotta sell my wounds to you
Dig up a memory I hate
Get some attention when I do
Now everybody knows best
Only see things how they want to
When papers roll in, it doesn’t have to be me
But it will never be you
Kick me down, mess me up a little more than last time
In the back of my head
Where the devils come play
Nothing better than this
I’m not missing a thing
And if you lay me down
Just let me burn instead
And if I get knocked down
I don’t want to go back
In the back of my head
Where the devils come play
Nothing better than this
I’m not missing a thing
In the house that I live
Where I spend all my days
Nothing better than this
I don’t miss anything
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Thin Air
03:03
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In my empty head
I like to say your name when you’re not here
I feel it tighten in my chest as I pull you out of thin air
I remember when you used to say that it’s time that complicates you
I remember it like it was yesterday
Fill me in on all of your secrets
Tell me what you’re thinking
Dig my wishing well
I throw a nickel down into it again
Takes me back to when I first looked down and saw myself
I still see you in most everything
I sing my blues away
Your words spill out like poetry
The way it goes is the same for you and me
Said I’d meet you in the morning
But I don’t have the energy
Give me something real
If only for the thrill
When it all falls down
There you are
No need to wonder
I used to know you better than anyone
I heard my voice through the open door
Singing my slow songs for whoever
But I don’t want to no more
Give me something real
If only for the thrill
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Call Your Bluff
03:25
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Hey, my friend
I know you’re keeping a lot of secrets
We’ve got some things to talk about
What I see in you, I see in myself
What’s that you’re thinking about?
Anything I should know by now?
Something that I should see for myself
And I believe in you, more than anyone else
Oh, I won’t call your bluff
Oh, I won’t give away the things I know
If you would slip under, I’d never let you go
In chains you came at war with the devil that lives in your head
I know what it is to hate yourself
I know how it feels to want to be someone else
All of the things you say
Swallow the hurt, it is your poison
The days are short and they move too fast
The things that you tell me, I tell myself
Oh, I won’t call your bluff
Oh, I won’t give away the things I know
If you would slip under, I’d never let you go
When you feel like giving up
When every day weighs heavy on your soul
If you would slip under, I’d never let you go
I watched you cry for help, reach out your hand
And then turn your back around
Everything I see in you, I see in myself
Hey, my friend
I know that you’ve got some trouble ahead
The road was straight but it starts winding
And you’re just there spinning along with it
Oh, I won’t call your bluff
Oh, I won’t give away the things I know
If you would slip under, I’d never let you go
When you feel like giving up
When every day weighs heavy on your soul
If you would slip under, I’d never let you go
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Pedestal
03:12
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I got my ready, set grip and I keep it just in case
I woke up early this morning and I feel so strange
Well there is something inside of me, it’s eating at my brain
I’ll take some medicine for it and then I’ll be okay
I will show you my faults
And then you’ll shove it in my face
I got nothing more to give, only a bitter taste
Never doing what I want and only making pocket change
My insecurities are heavy and hang on a string
Well you can tell me what you want and you won’t get a fucking thing
I showed you my faults
And then you shoved it in my face
I gave you my all
And then you shoved it in my face
You’ve got some money put aside, it’s enough to hold your head up
Everything is going fine and nothing else seems to matter
You hold your pedestal high but no, nothing lasts forever
Show me something that you like and I’ll write you something better
I’ve got some problems you created
No I never say never
If you find a little time maybe you could make it better
You hold your pedestal high but no, nothing lasts forever
Show me something that you like and I’ll write you something better
I showed you my faults
And then you shoved it in my face
I gave you my all
And then you shoved it in my face
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Fight Beat
02:52
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Dead set
All that I have
Nothing that you would want to put into your hands
No fair
Saying things that I don’t want to hear
Cut off your big fat head
Keep it as my souvenir
Yeah, I will tell you once
But I won’t tell you twice
No fair
The feeling running through my veins
Give it some loving
Turn around then I’m back again
Me first
Was gonna leave but I stayed instead
All of my anger is just your voice drilling in my head
Yeah, I will tell you once
But I won’t tell you twice
Dead set
No fair
Cut off your big fat head
Keep it as my souvenir
Yeah, I will tell you once
But I won’t tell you twice
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Black and Red
02:52
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You ain’t a good friend
Got some dirt under your fingertips
Don’t care about a thing
Yeah you know what you want and that’s what you’re gonna get
I make it easy to take advantage of what i give
When my hands peel back your skin
You should blame yourself for it
I know you better than yourself
Your distance tells me where your heart is
There’s no coming back
I only see in black and red
I’m gonna get paid
Yeah I’m gonna get what I put in
When the air is suffocating
When your shelter is no longer there
When my hands are around your neck
You should blame yourself for it
I know you better than yourself
Your distance tells me where your heart is
Do you blame someone else for your darkness?
I know you better than yourself
When the sun escapes your grasp
Sets fire to everything
When my hands are around your neck
You should blame yourself for it
I know you better than yourself
Your distance tells me where your heart is
Do you blame someone else for your darkness?
I know you better than yourself
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Glass World
03:24
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Help me understand when the long night ends
And do what suits you
Five years in, drained of oxygen
You’ll do what suits you
If life in your glass world makes you feel so alone
Then why don’t you say so?
Save some face in any way
For you, I was a fool
I’ll hold you close
But when it’s time to go, I’ll move right through you
If life in your glass world makes you feel so alone
Then why don’t you say so?
And I’ll meet you somewhere when the world turns dark and cold
If you would just say so
This year pressed roses from you
If life in your glass world makes you feel so alone
Then why don’t you say so?
And I’ll meet you somewhere when the world turns dark and cold
If you would just say so
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Winter Buds
04:08
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Through my window lies my heaven
Through winter buds, dream so often
In my bedroom where I grew up
Kiss the carpet, dust the shelves off
Tell me what you want
Tell me if I’m strong enough
I’ll give you what you want
I’ll give you something good and old
Spend an hour on my back porch
Watch me scatter, find some comfort
Through my window, my world is blue
Through winter buds is where I’ll find you
Tell me what you want
Tell me if I’m strong enough
I’ll give you what you want
I’ll give you something good and old
You oughta know a bit better than me
Tell me what you want
Tell me if I’m strong enough
If everyone is alone
Then shouldn’t this be good enough?
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Edge of the World
03:27
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It’s a bitter cold today
I stood out here for hours
I was looking for an answer
Took a chance, took a swing and I missed
Late night and your heart hurts
I gotta get myself unstuck
Now it’s so much tougher than I thought it was
I stand at the edge of the world
Just staring out at the water
I was a symbol of hope
But I’ve been pushed a bit farther
And though I feel undone, I got more to offer
This was a big misstep
Now you become a stranger
I’m drawing dead today
Feeling like I’m hollow
There was no more to explain
You stood right there right in front of me and I could see it in your face
It never stops, it’s lasting so much longer than I thought it would
I remember what it was like
Your golden boy in flowers
Every song for you and I when we felt easy, we felt alright
I looked at you one last time and I knew that never again would I sing your name
You took something so beautiful and covered it with sorrow
I need to get my head straight
I need to stand a bit taller
Although I feel undone, I got so much to offer
This was a big misstep
Now you are just a stranger
But at the end of the day, there is beauty in tragedy
I hope you find what you need
I hope it’s everlasting
I hope you learn to love yourself
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